tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43036115074783262812024-02-07T03:25:03.759-05:00Deconstructing the Madness of a ChefHupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.comBlogger147125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-51382864975578251972014-03-31T14:32:00.001-04:002014-04-01T00:51:49.545-04:00I am the most wonderful, beautiful paradox ...you're the idoit.
God , I am soooo sick of " I am a yoga doing , environmental warrior cause I have a bummer sticker" crack heads.
I live in an area that is one of the most economically depressed parts of New York. Our farmers struggle as much as the people who want to buy their products. Most would love nothing more than to feed their families better than the box dinners or fast food. Sadly , it is cheaperHupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-43510454860395512732014-03-17T00:22:00.001-04:002014-03-18T18:03:25.183-04:00You'll stumble in my pudding.
I should be a better hostess of my blog. I know , I know.
I wish I could blame something of importance like work or illness, death in the family or broken heart. But honestly , though some of that has happen(and some hasn't) I have just been lazy , actually.
Well ,lazy and depressed but the depression has made me lethargic and unable to feel any sort of joy one feels when expressing joy of Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-59106551205175477622014-01-26T23:47:00.001-05:002014-01-27T00:00:08.578-05:00I surrender all control, to the desire that consumes me whole.....
So, I am moving.
Well, actually I already did. I moved to another town(?) I guess one could call it. It really is more of a village though one has to to scratch ones head at the concept of villiage, town and city around here. But besides this curious notion, I have moved into "town"but not to where I like to be.
I always thought I was an east coast gal. I spent all but 4 years on the east Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-65877338482745033222014-01-23T23:52:00.000-05:002014-01-23T23:52:26.782-05:00Waves of Regret, Waves of Joy......
So work...yeah.
So , where I work is going through some major changes. Some on the surface, so behind the scenes. I know a lot of what is going on and I don't press my big boss that much because sometimes less is more . There are times I was left in the dark on purpose to either save face, or for me not to have the ability to react ahead of time. I tend to react quickly and sometimes it works Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-40530927627978265392014-01-23T21:28:00.001-05:002014-01-24T00:13:34.256-05:00Bad,Mad and way to Fat.
Yes…I am fat.
There, I have owned up to it. I am an overweight women.
I struggle almost everyday of my existence dealing with my weight. I have lost huge amounts ( two times I have lost over 100lbs) and both times either gained all the weight back or a good part of it. I am not so much as ashamed as frustrated with my own dumbness.My best friend Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-29550658408766958502014-01-19T20:10:00.002-05:002014-01-19T20:32:31.967-05:00All natural and pack full of flavor
I am not a natural writer as evident in the blog. I don't even pretend to be even a decent one. But it will never stop me from writing or growing as a writer. I don't have huge aspirations to even be a writer of a well received anything. I just want to say what is on my mind. I don't get to express my thoughts about food and music or whatever to many people in real life mostly because of Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-76709962159078439672014-01-18T00:59:00.001-05:002014-01-18T00:59:43.272-05:00Words are meaningless, And forgettable ....I was reading a blurb of an article that spoke of a recent study that observed a group of men starting in their 40's till their 70 s and the effects of drinking more than two pints of beer a day Conclusion:They had memory loss.Signficiante!!!!!!Well, no shit. Thanks for wasting money on something one only has to observe , as a laymen, on any Friday or Saturday night. Well, Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-28878329116597332782014-01-16T21:06:00.001-05:002014-01-16T21:08:44.026-05:00Would I stay here forever and not be satisfied?
I ammmmmm back!
Did you miss me?
I am sure you did. What with holidays and nonsense that ensues during parties and gatherings, I am probably that light......that joy , you reach for before stumbling into a bed of a bewildered one night stand or annoyed partner/ spouse whose evil eye peers in the dark ,batting at the light of your phone or iPad as you search your feed or twitter for oneHupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-65009116700072030502013-10-15T02:06:00.001-04:002013-10-15T02:06:13.011-04:00But it tastes like warm ,squishy tasteless baby food!!I don't like soup.I am very serious. Now, I know I am in the minority here just like my distaste for Depeche Mode's apparently best ever Lp , Violator( that is a whole other bag of worms we might or might not wonder into ). But I have never been one to go " Oh gee. I have a hankering for warm ,gushie baby food". The idea of it is repulsive. The warmth and the overly softness of Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-66012868099075798682013-10-11T23:16:00.001-04:002013-10-11T23:37:06.118-04:00Big knockers I have been reading a lot of poetry lately .Two poets that are new to me are Warsan Shire and Andrea GibsonWarsan's work is amazing..it's hard for me to convay here how beautiful she strings words together and brings all sorts of emotions to surface. You are drawn into a world of sensuality , darkness and rawness. You almost want to cover your eyes but are compelled to read on becauseHupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-27725612412500703392013-08-31T01:00:00.001-04:002013-08-31T01:00:56.411-04:00You're just a big ball of pork fat and beerNow , just wait a second....Ok, what was I actually going to say? Literally have no idea of what the hell I was going to say.Seriously, I had this whole awesome rant in my head...augh!Oh yeah....I miss restaurant work. I miss the crush of the night when the dupes are screaming at you and you're sweating like a gutted pig. Then a shithead customer ,who knows nothing about good food ,Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-49702777945772342562013-08-30T00:49:00.001-04:002013-08-30T01:01:34.795-04:00Giant sweaty anus or Ode to My Beasties
I have a heavy head. And yes ,I meant beasties.
Well, my head isn't heavy but my brain is . Probably a little extreme on my behalf ,but I do have some artistic license here.
I am sure by now you all know I think..and I think a lot. My friend Dan, who is actually sort of my superior, also is afflicted with this problem. I am beginning to think that certain types of ...people ,passionate Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-47710932543520743032013-08-10T00:43:00.001-04:002013-08-10T00:47:55.485-04:00Good Intentions
Good Intentions
Surrounded by forces I cannot control
With desire to push through
To the darkness and light as
Burning pulses my soul
Trapped in a space
In a box
Punch through the air
With
Exhausting
Feverish
Intoxicating strength
Gasping for the mighty air streaming down
As it catches my fall
Exiting the shadows
With a leap
And a Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-87664886614062754352013-07-29T23:28:00.001-04:002013-07-29T23:45:27.972-04:00A restless body hides a peaceful soul....Sometimes I don't know what to say. I am not sure if it is my mind working overtime or really just an empty void of the moment. Despite my outgoing personality, I am actually quite shy. Not in the I never speak to anyone when I am out, I just get quite around new situations and people. I like to watch people and see how they interact and what the mood is before I join in. I have a strong Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-76349142290530542212013-07-20T01:31:00.001-04:002013-07-20T01:32:55.789-04:00Be careful what you do, because life becomes the truth.....
Maybe it's the heat, lack of carbs ,or the running every day , but people are on my last nerves these days. Not everyone of course, but enough of the small amount of the human race right now has me plotting several burials in my garlic bed.
The heat has been bad here. With no AC at work or home, fans are lowing a lot of hot air back out the window..then there is the heat...bahahahahahahahaha.Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-33966731401608585832013-07-14T19:38:00.001-04:002013-07-14T19:52:05.425-04:00Everlasting GobstopperI am in the middle of my extraordinary life. I think I need a cheeseburger.....0hhhhh donar kebab !!!!!Maybe lay off the meditation music a bit. Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-81540158821967874032013-07-11T19:51:00.001-04:002013-07-11T20:01:38.684-04:00Crispy... like a piece of over baked gyro meat because someone can't
pull stuff out of the oven when the timer goes offOne of my favorite jobs has been working at a place in my hometown called Premiere Gourmet. I literally grew up with this store. It used to be located at the end of my parents street then moved to bigger quarters once they became popular.After my first child was born, I had no job because my super cool sous chef job was no more( the place closed..which was too bad because it was a cool place to Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-13459848515486636802013-07-07T01:06:00.001-04:002013-07-07T01:06:21.367-04:00Blessed are the cheese makers......I am hot.It's still 75 here and it's 11 pm. And my house is a sauna. Hobbit houses do not make very good housing if not built into the earth. They are rather slimy ,sticky and small. Seriously, the ceilings are lower than any house I have occupied( let's face it, we occupy space , not live in it and yes, I got all deep and profound there. I even got a little physics too. ...least I think I did. Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-15665993556116408932013-07-02T10:05:00.002-04:002013-07-02T22:37:04.319-04:00Win a date with me
So here is the long anticipate essay I had to do for my boss.
I am not sure how well written it is but it is rather funny I think.
Though my boss thinks I need a date......
The Pama Roma: A Love Story
12 months ago, if you told me that I would be hugging a cold , strong, silent object every time I walked past it, I would think you were talking about an old boyfriend. But it still remains Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-81622022990995197752013-07-01T20:58:00.001-04:002013-07-01T20:58:52.182-04:00In your eyes, your pale blue eyesThis is me.... Just fresh scrubbed face me. Thought you like to see who was babbling on and on about nonsense.I am been trying to write a paper about my high end pasta machine for my boss that he wants to send off for trade magazines, for the past three days....No pressure ,right?Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-35247054128244706742013-06-28T23:20:00.002-04:002013-06-28T23:57:33.406-04:00Breasts like deflated torpedoes
Did you ever notice after you say something semi or for reals serious , you just think of something so very wrong that you make yourself puke from laughing so hard at your own stupidity and skanky humor?Yeah.....that was me a minute ago. It involved an umbrella and a platypus .(Heheheheh)Ok so here are a few jobs , that if I lived near these cities I would consider....and I am dead Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-59639419895429066082013-06-28T21:26:00.001-04:002013-06-28T23:10:43.841-04:00I get this feeling I'm in motion,a sudden sense of liberty ......
Well , hello there sailor!! Miss me?
Oh my dearest blog, I have missed you. I know you have missed me as you have erased a post I have been working on for three weeks.....
Bitch.
That's ok. One thing I do not lack is a very long tight memory. I ,unfortunately ,remember to much... to many small details have been left in the deep ,dark nooks of my brain that not even therapy can purge. Thank Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-62857013592459776672013-04-28T02:22:00.001-04:002013-04-28T09:23:26.692-04:00Little pig ,little pig get in the damn smoker!
So, I am up at this hour doing what I do best......thinking.
I am actually up because after having a few cocktails Friday night , I crashed for two hours , got up again and took my eldest to the airport for his senior trip...at 3am . Then couldn't sleep, watched terrible indie film I haven't a clue the name . Stayed up till my mind had enough at 6pm till 9:30 . So, now I am wide awake.
Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-3724843709335549592013-04-25T23:59:00.001-04:002013-04-26T00:05:54.700-04:00I used to be Snow White...but I drifted
Settle down..I know two posts in two days.
It's a Christmas miracle for sure.
Now before everyone gets all excited , this is going to be short and sweet.
I told you yesterday that it's busy catering time and basically busy, period. Sous Chef N is leaving and I have to deal with the other one( lord give me strength) BUT...little mama( that's me ,FYI. And happy also to say I am not BIG mama Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4303611507478326281.post-65246134420027970922013-04-25T01:01:00.001-04:002013-04-25T01:02:20.204-04:00My butt hurts.....
Sorry my little blog and blogettes. Work picked up a little and my dearest sous chef is so on the verge of abandoning me that I have other things to attend to.
So , what's new with you?
( don't worry, I'll just have a conversation in my head where you say awesome stuff about me and I say stuff like ..." No really, you're to sweet." Or " please , continue". Win, win for all)
So , I got in Hupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10738776226088646851noreply@blogger.com0