What ya going to do about it..

Ok so it is Thursday and I didnt write on Tuesday. SORRRRRRY.



I blame the chef I was helping out....for no other reason than he will never read this AND I can get away with it.

So anyway....

Helping this new chef out has brought up a lot of feelings and No, I don't mean like stir the groin sort of feelings.
More like ":HOLY SHIT my unit sucks". There are many really great qualities about where I work but the further we get into stuff in the years, the worse things seem to get.
How do I get people motivated to care about the food they are producing or is it after trying several different tactics even writing them up nothing working, is it time to just say.." Sorry but you are not willing to adhere to company policies as laid out to you 7437324703246325 times, please leave".

I am not the greatest chef or manager. But I care enough about the client and even my staff to give people chances but when it becomes a joke about how we never fire people then shit needs to change.

I have a certain agenda that I have to get across to everyone including upper management which seem to forget I am above them because as it is food service based business and I am the Executive Chef, it falls on me and my boss when shit gets fucked up.There seems to be this inability to say..You are in charge and you need to listen to her and work together. I am not really looking to be my other managers boss, I am looking to be in charge and left alone to work with my staff. To many damn chiefs and none can just be a lacky.

So I have a fight on my hands I know from at least two people directly under me.And a manager who is beyond paranoid. I have no melcious bone in me what so ever . But I dont like getting backed into a corner because then I come out and I am not very nice about it. I work hard and do not like when people who DON'T know better interfer with what I have to do as put forth by my own mind and that of my bosses.


So I HAVE struggle on my hands and with a mind like mine that right now is struggling with her own demons( and by that I mean me ,myself, and I...since I have no vices ,no addictions.)it is not the easiest of parties to participate in.

But it is my life and while I not wish it on anyone it is a life worth living and I don't really question the stupid shit parts. They are just part of the grand scheme of things and while I can control some of it, the other parts need to play out and come what may the end result will be just that....the end result...good or bad.


So for now I need to let go of the past ,even the immediate past. My hang ups need to dissipate and moving forward, in what is I like to think the middle of my career, is a necessary goal. Focus on the things that I can change for the better for all and let go of any part of my life that is pulling my soul down.

I am a bad mother FFFFFFFF blogger

ok so I have been a bit lazy.

Alright....REALLY LAZY.







But shit happens in life ...like life and one has to deal with that before one can go off and blog about it. I am not one to take a meal , take a shit and tell people the texture of said meal that was formed in the shit I just took....every time I eat and shit...mostly because I do both fairly regularly and let's face it...shit is just shit.


So I have been a busy chef. But busy period was suppose to be over BUT NOOOOOO. silly old company I work for did something even more silly...they added more schools to the group!!!


THANK GOD!New blood to the mix and new chefs.


Because I can't give to much details away , I am a part of a group where there are now four of us and we are expanding...hopefully to a 5-6 school in the next year or so. It is all very exciting since I have never had other chefs this close to me and even better..."squeal" they are all boys and GOOD CHEFS!!!!


So now I have been helping out at the latest school to join the group and the new chef etc etc.

And still helping my school and catering ,which lost yet another catering director(my good friend) to another account as she was promoted to resident director. AUGH!!!!!
All of which has made me a pissed off chef. And I don't mean I am PISSED off like I am angry cause I have been sitting around(figuratively) and not doing what I need to do.


Now....It is time to get shit done, weed out those who just want to complain and drag the rest down and lift up those who are willing to go the extra mile because it is worth it. It is cooking good food people...caring about the food and in itself giving respect to it and yourself.

Shit is going to go down and I will not be told by those under me NO. As the the team/company player of the group I think it is I that determine what is going to happen. It is ME that has been listening to the client and to our students. It is ME that bears the brunt of any negative things that will happen.

How can any person with any sense think Healthy eating and being more green is a "Fad"? Is your head that far up your ass?

It is late and I am happy that there is a new juiced up me now.



I will write more Monday.....need to pee and then sleep. ....if I can get my brain to shut off.

Hello blog...i love you.

I LOVEEEEEEEEE NYC!!!

I love NYC!!!!

I really do!!! It is one of my favorite places. There is to much to do and to many neat ,cool places to shop and eat at.
I spent the past weekend with my son and a new friend in the city for a Rammstein concert( I am a fangirl as is my friend, Feather and my son , Charles( though he is more fanman...hehehe..lol)



2 days is not enough time to explore and while I am a walker, I have grown slightly overweightoutofshape as of late. But we managed to cover a some ground and eat so fantastic food.....more on that in a later post(I am at work...need to write fast...)


One thing that I love and hate( hate is strong word but lets face it when you are living in a small town and you go to a huge town, hate is the word to use) is the variety of stores that sell the best and coolest ingredients. I know that I am one  of the few weird freaks that love food shops and "chef" type stores. I love smells , and textures of new products. Seeking out new things that I might have seen on TV or in a book is like going after that one first edition book or rare gem.



  I suppose on some level I have a slight unnatural obsession with food...but not like a kinky I am sleeping with a side of beef or a box of fiddle head ferns. I enjoy my job and I enjoy food,moreover I enjoy sharing what I find and opening new doors for those close to me( oh the ego soaked words there).

I am a bad blogger...please forgive.

http://bourdainmediumraw.com/essays/view/928

http://bourdainmediumraw.com/essays/view/928


So I did this essay thing....

I dont want to be number one cause i think the top 9 have great essays.
I want to be #10....so I am seen:)



VOTE VOTE VOTE EVERYDAY!!!

Captain Phil was a sexy crab man

I will admit it...I am a fan girl of "Deadliest Catch". I am not one do go all weird and watch reality shows( ok I watch like two just cause I, A) LOVE Kathy Griffin and B) LOVE Tori Spelling cause she only takes her family and career serious...and I want to feed her.

But I digress....

So I have been watching DC since it started  seasons ago and right from the get go I was a fan of the scruff tough love sarcastic Captain  Phil. Have to say it was the eyes and big bear exterior but soft heart that attracted me and kept me as a fan.(and for the record Jonathan Hillstrand is my second favorite just cause he is a guy who will be there for you when the shit hits the fan.)


So anyway... My heart broke when Phil passed away this past February and watching this years episodes that show Phil's stroke and ultimately his death made me very sad . I wish  sometimes I had stayed in Seattle...not that i think he and I would have met though ..rawr vvvavv la BOOOM. But i miss the pacific ocean( talk about a 180 on topic) I miss the fresh king and opial crab we could get . I miss talking to crab men and fishermen on their off season. They were/ are some of the coolest and hard working people I know...and they smelled GOOOD...


......if sea water and old spice are your thing.

So the least i can do for my fond farewell to my reality TV boyfriend is a favorite dish of mine....


King Crab Wontons:


The mixture is enough for 15 to 20 wontons....DON'T OVER FILL!!!!


1 package medium square wonton wrappers ..if you have access to an Asian market ,get them from there..FRESH.

2 pounds pound king crab legs, cooked,  and meat pulled from shell
1 red bell  and 1 yellow pepper, finely diced
1 bunch of green onion  finely chop the whole thing
10oz boursin or pub cheese


Vegetable oil, enough to deep fry
 
 
1)Combine crab meat, bell pepper, , green onion, and cream cheese and mix together

2)Separate wonton wrappers into individual wrappers . Place one   tablespoon of crab mixture in the center . Wet your finger with water, trace around the outer edges of the wrapper and fold bottom right corner of wrapper up to top left corner of wrapper. This should create a triangle shape. Pinch every edge to make sure the wonton is sealed. Fill all wontons until you've used up the filling.

3)In a skillet place veg oil and heat up to about 350. Carefully  deep fry the crab wontons until golden brown. Drain on several layers of paper towels. Garnish with some chiffonade of Basil and serve with a spicy dipping sauce.




Rest in Peace dear Phil!! You made this NY girl want to escape back to the Pacific Northwest time and time again.XOXOXOXOXO